I don't deny that what other people talked bout me and say that Imma bitch cause sometimes it might be true. I know it's sort of difficult to persuade people that as if I say I am trying hard to be nice to everyone, I know and I always know. However, there is someone still thinking I was trying to be mean to him/her, (:
Hmm,what shall I say? Deny or Admit? I think you might understand me well than others. Well, I will not hate a human like FOREVER in my life. Here's always a good example in my life, I hate my mum but I still treat her nice as I could. There will no BITCHES or DOGS longer in my life. If you think that I or We didn't do our best to carry in on, then you're wrong. Nevertheless how fucking we don't willing to do that, but as a friend, we still wanna to give you anything that you should gain. Opps, or I should change the word " we " to " I ". No matter how many bullshits you've given me, no matter how much I hate you sometimes, no matter how much I don't willing to do, but at least our past kept on remind me that I SHOULD FUCKING DETERMINED AND CARRYING ON THAT FUCKING NON-OF-MY-BUSINESS without thinking of the current situation. And I was the organizer my dear. (: Skipped and rushed and kept on worrying bout the whole plan and your feelings as well as even get scolded because of you. However, this is the way you treat us. (: Thanks, but that's little too over my dear. Our patience got to the edge Im sorry. Life's always fair, you gained something but at the same time you lost something that you might thought that's not that important in your life last time. All of us are trying to hold your-so-called-fragile-relationships but at the same time what you did to us? Or I should say, what you did to me? :D I know I shouldn't blame you that you are the only one who started all the current consequences, but Im sorry again, this is my limit. This is my little confession and some of them might be theirs. You know I still care, no matter what. They do care also.

Oh lastly, you deserved it though you might not even care. (:

#PS : Feel my hurts?
#PPS : I don't mind that you hate me, this is your right. Call me bitch that you didn't really meant it to me last time.

Labels: ♥ Confessions.

将对你澎湃的思念推进一间黑暗的房间；偶尔不经意溜了进去，在内里吸的是曾经疯狂过去的烟，沉溺在自我麻醉；醉醺后仅剩仅狼狈的身躯面对窗外的难以释怀。

孤行来到一人游的岛，呼的只有一人的空气。因为无尽的思念，因为不了情，我一直愧疚于一人。不管我态度犹如四季春夏秋冬，殷勤耐心的对待从不改变。其实我一直都看到，其实我一直都感受到，更能让我自责以至自觉罪孽深甚的是你那隐藏式的关怀；然而，唯不能和你对海誓言的也只不过是对于过去的牵挂和藕断丝连。

结果对你是种不公平，但若不举红旗暂停，后面的后面会是带给你更多的不公平。不否认自私战俘我的心，狠心搁下所有是我唯有的办法。对你是不已的愧疚，我知道是极度地不公平，因为对他是不该有的依赖和扔不走。

除了对不起还是心中最诚恳最真诚的对不起，Im sorry, Banister.
这是我这几个星期一直想 post 的一篇日志。Hmm. : /

Labels: ♥ Confessions.