当一个人的能耐到了极限的时候，冷漠以对是绝佳办法。当我还对着你嬉皮笑脸逗着你玩的时候就足以证明我并不想再让自己做下任何残忍的决定以忽视或冷眼或任何事都漠不关己的态度来对你。

或许，hmmmmmmm，不该这样说，一直以来都是一厢情愿，所以我选择不再愚笨。

一直以来抱持毫无戒心毫无警惕的心，到后来原来得到也只不过就那样。(;
事实总可残酷媲美。我一直都身处在这样的国度，可是不管怎么样，我依旧活在一种自我幻想的空间。就像死亡一样，我总不觉得我会在一场车祸里死去；因为身上血迹的存在只因我伏在带有刺的玫瑰死去。这就是一种疯狂自我幻想的例子。

对于我的冷淡，我总为你找千百个理由。由电话发出的没温度的信息，我相信是我感应不到你的语调，你的语气，我不怪你。因为从我观察你至今天，你的快乐你的伤心你的一切情绪可从那双瞳和那声音感受；很细微，保护膜勉强覆没着自尊心。

我看得见你在乎，你的眼神在试探着我的反应。
我听得见你快乐，或许很简单，可是我相信你和我在一起至少是那么简单地快乐。

我知道你曾经一直疼爱着我，你从不承认，随你。
你应该喜欢我，我也应该喜欢你，好像就是这样，其实很复杂。

所以我所说的这一切都是虚拟的，因为我说过，这些都只是自我幻想，自我推断的虚诳。
简单来说，你不爱我，你也不喜欢我。

Too much unprecedented emotions that I never met before last time which I ought to emit all these bullshits in this blog, these are utterly strung me up and fucked up with my life. I feel so stressed. :' (
Everything happened just like a blink of an eye.

First :

I would like to pay my deepest condolence about the lost of my whiteberry9700 which accompanied me like 24hours, non-stop servicing me and killed my lonely time.Should blame on my own reckless, - - but I still can't resist myself from dulan-ing and cursing the fucking culprit who has stolen my BB ; ' ( FYL Mr.panjangtangan.

16.10.2010 My very virgin belly dance performance at a restaurant which I've forgotten the name around Puchong : DDD.

Seems like I've long period never touched my bloggie, it's time to activate my bloggie back, hmmm, utterly feel ashamed and uneasy to my devoted bloggie. Never thought of updating my blog at this moment cause I thought in these few days, there's nothing impressive things could inspire me thought of noting them down. It's kind of feeling that I was just passing my lives, nor live, *heave a sigh*, pathetic life. : (
Life should be to fluctuate as I lived last time!


So, I've done something surprisingly to our darCheyenne with them, 15.10.2010 was her birthday but we celebrated her 18th birthday on the next day. I recall that she ever said human should not celebrate their birthdays on their mother's most painful moment which the day she born us to this world, undeniably, its the fact of a filial child should always abide with.

Everything went ahead as I planned, : D Teheeeeeee. Her Form6 classmates were sort of pleasant-surprised guests on that day, and few so-called-out-of-sight-friends. ♥

Firstly, Happy birthday to my dearly college mate , BEN BEHHHHHHHHHHH!!! ♥ Happy 18th birthdayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy and I'm sorry that I couldn't do anything for you besides wishing you happy birthday !! I'm really sorry for this but no worries, you ll receive your birthday present one day, just gimme few days : DDD. TRUST ME ! 我用 Low Chun Teng and Ling Chee Seng的头来跟你担保！！！！ muahahhahahaa XDDD