First and foremost, i don't want to comment about anything that happened on that day during school time.I was actually bad in mood when i was woke up at 6 in the morning, as usual, i did not feel like going to school. Facing the same teacher,they were teaching nonsense, and don't even give us a useful homework that can let us improve our education. Every moment that i have stayed in school was like wasting my time, and as 5A6 student, i usually crapping with my little gang gang, doing others subject homework while having those lame subject. Sigh, that is why i always request not to go to school from my mum.
Okay, i always don't suspect my sixsense. At the 6 in the morning, I could feel that i will encounter something that out of my routine life. And yes it is, the universe totally fulfilled me. ; ) I was caught by ketua pengawas just because of my short socks, ; ) fuck! my socks are just covered my ankle entirely.
Firstly, he came toward me. Then he asked me what kind of socks i was wearing. Then i answered him '' white socks '' -.- So stupid i was. I did not expected that he will scold me just because he was not contented of my socks. Then he asked me to go to the stage as ny punishment.
=_= Then, i walked to the stage and stood on the stage like a mad people. That time really felt like crying because i never got this kind of punishment before. Luckily, my friends had been commented stand on stage too. HahaXD Since my friends had accompany stood with me, i felt comfortable. Im a such a *SULAK* XD
After that, of course we had been lectured on being as a AJK of Lembaga, but we were still did not complianced school rules and bla bla blaaaaaaaaaa... Other pengawas were like watching drama, I know they were teasing us. I can feel their feelings through their face expression. Anyway, i don't mind. : ) This experience was just like one of my craziest things that i have done during my primary school time, although its quite shameful. Haha. XP
Imagine, a AJK Disiplin of Lembaga Pengawas Sukan had been punished by ketua pengawas on stage. ;) This evidence proved that im not suitable to be a AJK Disiplin. *Sacarstically*
23 June 2009
这不是生命的错觉
只是想在这时刻感谢我的男朋友,我知道他真的不是个很好的开导者或是个聆听者。有时候,我会更是为了因为他没有专心听我说话,或是我在说话时没看着我的眼睛这些芝麻小事而闹得不愉快。反正对我做人的原则来说,聊天也是该互相尊重彼此,就算是聆听者也好,也应保持聆听着该对发言者所应有的礼貌。Ei Ei Ei..说说下,就有点小离题了。Back to the main point, 简单来说,我的男朋友就是个不乖的聆听者。
*I am just being myself, do not pretend infront of boys, and frank to anyone which i used to be. * XP
19 June 2009
我好累,真的
其实习惯性看我部落格的人会发现我换了小主题,不是blog skin or anything,就是我的部落格主题。我想现在的生活应该并没有再像之前那么地梦幻了,总会让别人感觉像是读着一名无名氏的故事,看着她精彩的生活,在阅读她的故事的时候隐约可想象当时她耀跃活泼的心情,这只是本人自己的假设,至于本人的文笔可否达到这种境界,那就还是得depends on读者。;)
老师说完那一番过后,我一整天都真的很不开心,我知道我做错了。我在我的juniors and ex AJK面前不只丢尽我的面子,还有就是办事还有纪律能力。身为一位纪律长,我都没办法让自己纪律,我知道我是差劲透了。那天晚上,我压抑了好久,我终于哭了。任何事情的机会只有一次,错过了一次,就算是心肠再好的菩萨也不能给你一次机会,让你时光倒遂,让所有的事情重新开始。能相通的唯独跟自己说任何人都会犯错,就下次不要再犯错就行了。而悲观主义者则是一边责怪自己,想不通,骂自己,惭愧不已,难过一整天。而我,就是后者。我真的直到我错了,真的,确实知道自己不能再重新再来一次。真的很难过,难过透了,现今的我不知该如何去面对从前的我,更何况是别人?我知道我做错了好几点错误,说真的,我听了老师的那一番话过后,其实我发现我不愚蠢,我是聪明的,我知道那一切的细节,我知道。但是,我根本不知道我该如何去处理,也不知道那一些些的小细节不处理的后果,我太不知道了。唯独我不知道的是原来everything在学校所发生的事情都会呈上去上面,单纯至愚笨,原来这就是security guard会做的事情。还有另外一件事就是我没在拟定的时间睡觉和起身,太放肆了。还有就是,我很不以大局为重,所幸有旁人的点醒,感谢不已,否则我的罪更深。EX AJK有说我们经验太浅,没经历过这一些些。我不敢这样对自己说,对旁人来说,或许这真的是我们经验太浅,没经历过这一些些。可是,我没必要跟自己这样说,那是在找借口原谅自己,我没必要。