我想是时候又得在这里胡言乱语一通了。

坦白说，不知是为了金钱的问题还是升学的问题，我想我还是比普通一般人来得压力。我喜欢别人给我任何上的意见，却讨厌别人对我有主见。

就是，我喜欢听大人给我很多很多很多在升学方面的意见，但却不喜欢他们因为自己对此有偏见所以我们这些下一代的就必须对此此有bias，就譬如我说我想读LAW，然后某人就会直接丢给白眼给你，然后“劝”你说你不如去读什么什么I-Don't-care-what-the-heck-is-that的科系，I think it's something about Maths。就关于股票计算之类的，

Kayyyyyyyyyy....................我不会去读一些我自己都没有能力去读的科系好不好？

In fact, I don't meant that I did not appreciate that person's suggestion or what. I do appreciated but it's like I wish to get more supportive comments from my family.

Sometimes，I really envy those people who always backuped by their parents and their parents will always lead them to the right way.

So one day, I searched about Law's coll by google and I found that it's not that simple and easy to found the one u want/need. And I do found about scolarships too like from those big company and I realised that it's freaking hard to fully-complete that form and submit those details they want, like CV. -___-^ And I dont fucking know what is CV actually, so I enquired it to a seasoned friend which now studying in HELP UNI, and he told me that CV actually is a something like resume bout ur curriculum, and you have to follow to the format which I can find it in google to write a CV resume.

Goshhhhhhhhhhh, kill me. I fucking need a counsellor.

So.......................

In the end, I gave up to continue that............

However, another ray of hope appeared at that moment.

I realised that I still kept a name card which I got it from a guy at my ex school's edu fair. He's a counsellor and that organization is like helping student to manage their edu abroad for freeeeeeeeeee charge I think.
So I called them and messaged them bout my problem, and I got their reply in the next morning.

The person asked me about my thoughts of LAW, seriously, I can't answer him cause his questions were likeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee tooooooooooo mature for me, maybe, too mature.

Im sort of unstable of my future currently.

In the end, he said that he hoped to have a meet with me at their office so I can do some aptitudes or some career's test to find my innate skill as well as interests of course.

 Oh ya, I do did some aptitudes test in web, that was really sucks. -_-''

Besides, I've searched some officials of certain coll like INTI or Nilai and I do talked to them. So here's another story about me and the graduate of the INTI Coll.

He's a Indian actually.

We were like chat in FB for couple more minutes. He gave me some comments of course, he asked me it's better to go after the coll to get more useful info. Yeaaaaaaa, I know........-_-

So I went through INTI's official web and mailed to them.

This morning, the counsellor of INTI called me and told me a lot of things. Like again, she hoped I can meet her at INTI so I can know more about my studies for next grade.

Seeeeeeeee, I really played hard for my future. However, there're loadsssssss of obstaclesssssssss.......like the fucking NS. Till now, I still cannot get any details about which batch I dropped in and where's my camp or what.

Maybe, Im gonna delay.............maybe..........or maybe nott.......

And Im going to start my work as a teacher in kindergarten again due to the principal's demand tomorrow :D Should be happy right? I need money urgently for my new phone and etc etc etcccccccc.....

It's 3.33am.

Tell myself, I would not beated by anything, anyone easily. : )

Smileeee, Im always tough as you see.