There's nothing I can do besides blogging here which could really make me feel like "Oh No! That's really feel so good of being myself ! " 

Bunch of friends used to ask me why am I alone Again walking on the street or college but however, they always doubted me after getting know my answer, 

" Errrrrrr..I like to be alone.."

This answer fulfilled non of my friends, as well as they used to stared at me and maybe started to ponder bout my social life. 

" Maybe that's her excuse to get rid of the fact of she doesn't have friends? I know it's sort of humiliating to tell others that you don't really have friends at coll or in ur life, awww..that's really pathetic. " 

 If I were you, that would be part of my mind when I chuckled at you after the reply.

For me, it would not be humiliating to be alone or be single lad in this world, maybe for others, they feel that way. Yet, being alone feels restraint-less or I don't need to compromise anyone's needs/wants which I don't even willing to do sometimes. But it doesn't mean I don't need my friends, I still a normal mankind but, I don't frequently find my friend and don't even meet up with my friends often because I don't wish that I'm giving my friends kind of thought that I'll only find them when I'm in troubles, depression, loneliness and etc etc. Sounds like excuse again, maybe we are just don't have the right time to meet each others? : /

Life's getting harder, and I think I've chosen the path which people less go..I'm just doing my own business which step by step to achieve my dreamS, but it never be easy as I wished. Somehow, I do see nothing on my developments or growth,,,but Im keeping up myself from learning and absorbing different varieties of thing from my jobs and studies. Pretty tough and sacrificing, I do lost my social life which every teen keens for it, but somehow, I think it's worth, I always tell myself.

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" Past means past, it will never goes and turn back "

People can lie whatever on the actual fact to me, for instance, I will not 100% to trust a guy who say ILOVEYOU to me cause it's sort of superficial though, but once he wrote that three words,8 alphabets to me, the feeling is entirely different. I don't mean it to every girls do feel this way, but for me. In a nut shell, what I wanted to imply was once you have written down that, you meant it, right? (; that's pretty enough for me.

#PS: There's still a sentence between I Love You and I don't love you which is,

"I shouldn't love you"

so? which means u love me or not?

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diuuuuu.-.-

: X oh no! I didn't mean it to anyone of youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.

Bye!